BDSM Youth

Madeline~ my brother knows about it, and is in to it to a point, but wouldnot go as far as to have a relationship with a sub and is 19, so free to do what ever he wants. Although i think my father might have seen a book (The Story of O) and DVD (Justine De Sade) in my room and I have a sneaking suspicion that he knows something, but dosen't want to talk about it (like i would anyway) to my great Embarrassment.

(For me) really it is just me and Helena.

Helena~ being in a Christian family does make it hard to express this,it is like coming out to them that I’m homosexual, which I’m not. Ironicaly enough my Jesus freak cousin I have is actually very much submissive. I discovered her when she told me that she was a masochist. And with a sigh of relief I told her she wasn’t alone. She is very much involved in the(online) community, but in a Christian matter which I respect. And she is a virgin (like madeline), she has been the closest thing I have to a mentor, but fully encourages me for lack of a better word, to keep it in my pants. I have another cousin whom her and I shared a knife with to cut each other (light abrasions) and we also played with wax, the funny thing is we’ve been doing this since we were eleven, at the time we were simply emo, and wanted to feel the relief through pain, nothing was sensual, but as we got older and stopped cutting we discovered a sensual part of it (not to each other). She became kinky, but strictly in the bedroom, and I became flat out "weird".

I have for my friends, aside from Madeline, another girl whom I call blue, her nick name was daddy, only because she was so dominate to our friends, especialy to the girls. Blue was very artistic as a joke she drew me as a dominatrix, seeing this I laughed my ass off cause it was the opposite of what I am, she then started talking about her fascination with whips. I then got into the conversation and she discovered that I was indeed submissive, panicked and ashamed that my secret came out of the closet she laughed and said, "its ok we're all a little bit weird" later on I figured out that one of her "lovers" was also very submissive. My conclusion for all this is that freaks simply attract more freaks, and god do I love it. I will be writing this attraction in my next blog and the frustrations of people mistaking me as Dominate. (M: I doubt she'll get to it any time soon;))

Thank you very much Miss Queenie for putting your neck on the line and helping us desperate young submissives. Hope to hear from you again, it’s nice to know we’re not talking to oblivion.

P.S. I am the only one in my family (that I know of) that is into BDSM this much.

First of all thank you for checking out our site. me and Helena thought we were talking to ourselves, we were very happy that somone actully commented. Sorry it took awhile to respond, I didnt even see it until last night (being so used to no comments I thought it was a trick of the eye, lol). I think me and helen would like to ask one question.

How do you find a mentor? without going online of course and talking to random people on Fetlife, wouldnt trust the internet for the life of me.